Apartment #219

New apartment. Just me and the bear :)

studio. large walk in closet. new carpets. wanna-be granite counter tops. pool. dog run. hot neighbor on the left. potsmoker neighbors on the right.

It's small, but its eclectic and affordable and semi-awkward. Just my style.

My bed is in what should be the dining area, because I HAVE to have my bed under the ceiling fan or I would die. And yes, Im going to buy a couch/futon for visitors. And I have a BIG tv.

Life is good :)

Dear little sister... who's ex is a bag of douche,

Introduction: Here is some advice I gave my lil sis who dated this guy... She told him she wanted to keep things pretty casual (seeing that she just got out of a 6 year relationship). On one of their dates that they went on, she drove and her car got towed. He insisted he pay for the tow charge. Later when things started getting too serious, she told him she needed to take a few steps back. Bitter and what he thinks is a broken heart (after only a few months of dating) he insists she pays him back. He stalks her financial endeavors via facebook by keeping track of the places she check-ins so that he can call her out on all the money she spends instead of paying him for something that was never consensually agreed to be paid back.

Ohhhhhh man. This is ridiculous!
For starters, I like your word choice when responding to his request..."What a fair weather friend you turned out to be, and a tacky-ass one at that." NICEWORK sis.
Second, Yes, he is out of line. Reminds me of something (insert ex BF's name) would do. Bastard. He is just bitter that you don't like him anymore. Instead of trying to be content with being your friend, and trying to be mature, he is trying to make you hurt in any way he can... It seems immature, but I think you need to de-friend him on facebook. Other wise he is going to know all of your business.
Also, I honestly don't think I would pay him!! Its a life lesson he should learn. Not everything last forever, so next time he pays for something he should realize it he isn't buying your love. Tell him he was being a good friend and thank him. It would be in his best interest to let his balls drop, go through puberty, mature a little, and move the f*** on. Hearts get broken. That's what life is about. Girls break your heart, boys break your heart. Your cats dies... and your heart breaks. You get fired... your heart breaks, you change your plan of attack on life.. and yes your heart breaks again. NOWHERE is there a signed contract when dating someone that says it is going to last forever. And nowhere is there a contract that says he would loan you money and you would pay him back. So him putting this 'payment plan' on you and monitoring how you spend your money is a joke.
I would ignore him and try to cut him out of your life as much as possible. You have grown more mentally, financially and emotionally than most 22 year year olds. So he can f*** himself. He is just trying to jab you where you are most sensitive. Just have confidence in your self and remind yourself you are not a bad person no matter what he says.
Keep on Keepin on. I love you!!!!
Sincerely,
Don't mess with my little sister or I'll kick your ass

My Impossible List

"It's kind of fun to do the Impossible" -Walt Disney
Possible is safe, realistic and boring. Let's take risks, get hurt and get happy. I might not be able to do everything on this list... but I will try anyway.

*This is a first draft*
Life Goals
• Change 1 Person’s Life For The Better
• Sponsor a student to attend college
• Buy a House
Fitness Goals
• Run a 5k -CHECK
• Run a 10k-CHECK
• Run a Half Marathon [Oct.16.2011 in SF]
• Run a Marathon
• Run A Triathlon
Travel Goals
• Visit Every Continent
o North America -CHECK
o South America
o Europe
o Asia
o Australia
o Antarctica
o Africa-CHECK
• Go Swimming in Every Ocean
o Pacific-CHECK
o Atlantic-CHECK
o Indian
o Arctic
o Southern/Antarctic
• Travel For 1 Year Straight
• Become Fluent in a foreign language
• Own a small flat in 2 different countries
Minimalism Goals
• Go without a car for a month
• Fit everything I own in my car-CHECK
• Create a “Getaway” Backpack [I'm really excited about this]
Adrenaline Rushes
• Go Skydiving
• Go Scubadiving
• Bike Across America
• Do A Cross Country Road Trip-CHECK
• Climb a Volcano
Events To Attend
• Burning Man-CHECK
• Bonaroo
• Coachella
• Sasquach
• Day to Breakers
• Participate in Tomatina
• Running of the Bulls
• Mardi Gras
Professional Goals
• Purchase a company -CHECK
• Put $100,000 in the bank
• Give $100,000 away
• Start a successful blog

I like this. Switchin things up :)

I want to name my next pet SpRiNkLeS

Next Tattoo: Infinity ∞

Having sex is like playing bridge. If you don't have a good partner, you'd better have a good hand.

Seattle

Had an amazing weekend in Seattle with the boy. I had so much fun hanging out with his college buddy and just being silly together. I like hanging out with boys... they are usually pretty innapropriate and thats what I like. It was hard to keep up at times, but I think I did ok.

The plan is to run away together once a month... next stop Disneyland?!

this is exactly how i want to live:

It doesn’t interest me what you do for a living. I want to know what you ache for and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart’s longing.

It doesn’t interest me how old you are. I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love, for your dream, for the adventure of being alive.

It doesn’t interest me what planets are squaring your moon. I want to know if you have touched the centre of your own sorrow, if you have been opened by life’s betrayals or have become shrivelled and closed from fear of further pain.

I want to know if you can sit with pain, mine or your own, without moving to hide it, or fade it, or fix it.

I want to know if you can be with joy, mine or your own; if you can dance with wildness and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes without cautioning us to be careful, be realistic, remember the limitations of being human.

It doesn’t interest me if the story you are telling me is true. I want to know if you can disappoint another to be true to yourself. If you can bear the accusation of betrayal and not betray your own soul. If you can be faithless and therefore trustworthy.

I want to know if you can see Beauty even when it is not pretty every day. And if you can source your own life from its presence.

I want to know if you can live with failure, yours and mine, and still stand at the edge of the lake and shout to the silver of the full moon, ‘Yes.’

It doesn’t interest me to know where you live or how much money you have. I want to know if you can get up after the night of grief and despair, weary and bruised to the bone and do what needs to be done to feed the children.

It doesn’t interest me who you know or how you came to be here. I want to know if you will stand in the centre of the fire with me and not shrink back.

It doesn’t interest me where or what or with whom you have studied. I want to know what sustains you from the inside when all else falls away.

I want to know if you can be alone with yourself and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments.


–Oriah Mountain Dreamer



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12 things i find ridiculously romantic

beaches
intimate glances amidst crowds
tickling
wildflowers in ball jars
handwritten notes
pouring rain
airport homecoming/farewells
green rolling hills
movie nights with wine and popcorn
old fashioned cars
holding hands
picnics

Online shopping on my lunch break :)

I need this Michael Kors watch!!... or maybe this one?... I just cant decided.

Operation: Bikini Body

Lately I have been uncomfortable in my own body. I've been wearing summer dresses because most of my pants are too tight :(

I had been slacking on working out for months, I've been busy moving, and eating out wayyy to much. I went from snowy Reno weather to Phoenix pool party weather and I am very unprepared.

I have been consistantly running at least 3 days a week for the past 3 weeks. I have noticed that I am more toned, but I still havn't lost any inches. I think I need to switch things up a bit and give my body a kickstart! oh, aaaaannnd I'm visiting Mr. Clayton in Seattle in 10 days!! So, hopefully I can drop a pound... or five :-/

So here it goes... Liquid Diet for 72 hours!!! + running 5x a week.
See you soon Bikini Body!

Things I'm addicted to

"I wouldn't really call it an addiction, more of a passion. I'm habitually passionate."


Lattes

Suntanning

Evening Runs

Kissing

Diet Dr. Pepper

Weekend Get aways <3

Happy Humpday!

Here are some Rules of Happiness from my lovely cousin Laura's blog :)

Go OVERBOARD on birthdays...

Save money, and be wise, but dont forget you can always make more money, but you can't always make more memories... [Instead of getting a cute place with expensive rent, I'm going to get a cheap place, travel the world and decorate it with pictures of the memories]

Skinny dip at every appropriate opportunity :)

Let you heart break and love it <3 ...[It is a good sign, having a broken heart. It means we have tried for something. ~Elizabeth Gilbert]

See Pocket full of Prose for more happies :)

i miss her the most

Dear Estee Bear,

I want you to know how much I miss you. I know you're having a blast with the boys... But I can't wait to get you back.

Xoxo,
Momma Bear